Night's Nothings Again
Who knows what I know
when I have asked the night questions
and the night has answered nothing
only the old answers?
Who picked a crimson cryptogram,
the tail light of a motor car turning a corner,
or the midnight sign of a chile con carne place,
or a man out of the ashes of false dawn muttering "hot dog" to
the night watchmen:
Is there a spieler who has spoken the word or taken the number of
night's nothings? am I the spieler? or you?
Is there a tired head
the night has not fed and rested
and kept on its neck and shoulders?
Is there a wish
Of man to woman
and woman to man
the night has not written
and signed its name under?
Does the night forget
as a woman forgets?
as a woman remembers?
Who gave the night
this head of hair,
this gypsy head
Who gave the night anything at all
and asked the night questions
and was laughed at?
Who asked the night
for a long soft kiss
and lost the half-way lips?
who picked a red lamp in a mist?
Who saw the night
fold its Mona Lisa hands
and sit half-smiling, half-sad,
nothing at all,
all the world?
Who saw the night
let down its hair
and shake its bare shoulders
and blow out the candles of the moon,
cutting off the snicker . . . and sobbing . . .
out of pillow-wet kisses and tears?
Is the night woven of anything else
than the secret wishes of women,
the stretched empty arms of women?
the hair of women with stars and roses?
I asked the night these questions.
I heard the night asking me these questions.
I saw the night
put these whispered nothings
across the city dust and stones,
across a single yellow sunflower,
one stalk strong as a woman's wrist;
And the play of a light rain,
the jig-time folly of a light rain,
the creepers of a drizzle on the sidewalks
for the policemen and the railroad men,
for the home-goers and the homeless,
silver fans and funnels on the asphalt,
the many feet of a fog mist that crept away;
I saw the night
put these nothings across
and the night wind came saying: Come-on:
and the curve of sky swept off white clouds
and swept on white stars over Battery to Bronx,
scooped a sea of stars over Albany, Dobbs Ferry, Cape Horn,
I saw the night's mouth and lips
strange as a face next to mine on a pillow
and now I know . . . as I knew always . . .
the night is a lover of mine . . .
I know the night is . . . everything.
I know the night is . . . all the world.
I have seen gold lamps in a lagoon
play sleep and murmur
with never an eyelash,
never a glint of an eyelid,
quivering in the water-shadows.
A taxi whizzes by, an owl car clutters, passengers yawn reading
a bum on a park bench shifts, another bum keeps his
majesty of stone
stillness, the forty-foot split rocks of Central Park sleep
the sleep of
stone whalebacks, the cornices of the Metropolitan Art mutter
own nothings to the men with rolled-up collars on the top of a
Breaths of the sea salt Atlantic, breaths of two rivers, and a
heave of hawsers
and smokestacks, the swish of multiplied sloops and
the hesitant hoo-hoo of coal boats: among these I listen to
I give you what money can never buy: all other lovers change: all
go away and come back and go away again:
I am the one you slept with last night.
I am the one you sleep with tonight and tomorrow
I am the one whose passion kisses
keep your head wondering
and your lips aching
to sing one song
never sung before
at night's gypsy head
These hands that slid to my neck and held me,
these fingers that told a story,
this gypsy head of hair calling: Come-on:
can anyone else come along now
and put across night's nothings again?
I have wanted kisses my heart stuttered at asking,
I have pounded at useless doors and called my people fools.
I have staggered alone in a winter dark making mumble songs
to the sting of a blizzard that clutched and swore.
It was the night in my blood:
open dreaming night,
night of tireless sheet-steel blue:
The hands of God washing something,
feet of God walking somewhere.